I owe acknowledgment
It is only through and in solidarity that will we transform into a country that values all lives with humanity and respect.
Playing the long game
Professionally, I am a consultant. This means I have opinions about most everything. I also have a little experience. What drives me is to be of service, which means (to me) that I pursue/contribute to something greater than my own needs, interests, etc. I am internally motivated (like my Daddy - yes that is how I refer to him - so now you know). I have never been particularly interested in visibility or attention in any way. If you have ever tried to take a group photo with me, you know this.
What I’m noticing
As I mature (that’s how I like to refer to the passage of time), I aim to be as fully integrated and authentic as possible. It is what I owe my ancestors and others denied the right to be their full selves. In early May I shared “I find that aspects of my identity are in conflict. I don’t know how to resolve the inner battle and I am fortunate that I don’t have to do so quite yet.” I also wrote that I benefit from “benevolent capitalism.” These realities contribute to the vibrating tension in my body that increases every day.
I have feelings: Follow-up response
Deep appreciation to those who shared their thoughts with me via email or on the blog. It was humbling to receive your honest observations and reflections on yourselves and this moment. You are seen, heard, and not alone.
I have feelings
The notion of control and certainty is one of the hallmarks of white-dominant culture. As I move along in my 50’s, I more and more challenge and reject those norms.