Something has changed
I can’t figure out what it is exactly but it all feels too small - the conversations, the containers, the connections- not enough, not complex enough. If I really think about it, I started feeling this last year. There is both a focus and a restlessness that coexist with the balance shifting day by day. It’s both personal and professional.
I also acknowledge that the line between the two (personal and professional) is blurry, dotted, and at times nonexistent. I find my energies drawn to people, places, and possibilities where the interplay is intimate and intense. I no longer want to operate within boundaries. I am curious about all the possibilities – those I can conceive of, and more excitingly, those that I cannot.
The global pandemic and increased awareness, acknowledgment, and maybe even amends for the commodification and devaluing of Black lives has heightened my senses. Life is short. There is much to do and change, transform, evolve.
I am noticing and craving more spaces where I can be more me more of the time: sure, unsure, settled, unsettled, unsettling… the continuum.
Not sure what will happen, and I’m OK with that. I don’t need to know. I like actually not knowing. All I know is I am game for it all. All the things.
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Jara Dean-Coffey (jdc) is Founder and Director of the Equitable Evaluation Initiative and the Founder of Luminare Group. For the past twenty-five years, she has partnered with clients and colleagues to elevate their collective understanding of the relationship between values, context, strategy and evaluation and shifting our practices so that they are more fully in service of equity. For more about musings + machinations click here.
